Fuck the ‘List’ or Not…
Feeling Stuck, Overwhelmed, Out of Sorts and pressed for Time?
Well, much to my dismay/surprise you’re not alone. Truth is, through
many heart to heart talks with friends, family and colleagues, I’ve
come to discover… this seems the standard norm and where
where my world within currently resides.
Stuck in a perpetual loop of playing catch up with a to do list far
exceeding realistic expectations, feeling exhausted, overwhelmed
and always out of time.
Perhaps, there, lies the problem: the need/want to do more
both in my personal and professional aspirations/endeavors,
and finding myself continuously adding to the ‘to do list’ yet, rarely crossing off.
The question “Why?” Why make the list to begin with?
Is it a feeling of satisfaction in completing ‘said’ tasks or the very
real need to release overwhelming self projected goals?
For me, it’s both and still, the gratification is minimal, remaining
a mystery, a ritual partaken, inevitably, but most doubtfully
to self soothe…
Though, as I become more aware of myself, my limitations, my goals, and …
my achievements, from the triumphant to the mundane:
(a perspective only known to the participating list maker)
I can most assuredly say, without pause, the dreaded ‘to do list”
isn’t going anywhere soon; however, I’m learning, slowly, to feel okay with
the extra add on’s, and more importantly, with the ‘to do’s that remain…
Published Elephant Journal